Wednesday, November 27, 2013

Working on Thanksgiving night

Thanksgiving...

A painful reminder of everything I have lost in life or just never had.  Family, traditions, awkward obligations.   

Thanksgiving night...

An extreme trauma anniversary for me.  The night I lost what little was left of my childhood at age 9. 

This year I am supposed to work the night shift Thanksgiving night.  I have no idea how I will get through it.  I have survived it the rest of my life by medicating or self medicating it away.  I have no idea how I'm going to manage to get through it conscious and alert.  I'd be lying if I said I wasn't nervous about it.