How is it possible to feel so lonely with such a sweet face constantly staring at me? But I do. I feel pretty lonely and alone and I don't know if that's my reality or just left over from my past. Is this just a comfortable feeling that I can't shake? I question every emotion I have lately. Thanksgiving is a hard time for me. It's a trauma anniversary and a family focused holiday. I want to hide until it's over but I'm forcing myself to participate. I've instigated a dinner with 9 other people, but I don't know all of them. I'm even cooking the turkey. I hope I don't poison anyone. I also ahope I don't freak out in front of my friends.
He follows me from room to room, staring at me with loving intensity. When I look at him he thumps his tail on the floor. I want to find a human who loves me half as much as this guy does.