- You're an adult.
- He's dead.
- You're safe now.
- It's over.
- He can't take anything from you anymore.
- He will never be able to hurt you again.
Yes he can.
These are lies or wishful thinking. I have been marked for life. I wear a scarlet letter on my chest. He is part of me everyday. I'll never be clean. I feel so fucking dirty but I can't wash it off. I will never be safe, feel safe. I will never be free. I've been marked, scarred, branded, infected. I am damaged.
I'm so full of sadness, anger, guilt, shame, confusion because there is love and yearning (and the shame those feelings cause) mixed in with all of that.