That's how I have been surviving my days and nights. Red wine, nyquil, sleeping pills, razor blades, and vitamin E oil. That pretty much describes my existence. I can't stop looking at the photos. I've talked about this with CT today. I see her again tomorrow.
My legs and abdomen are covered in hives. Really gross, red, hot, itchy hives. There are hives all over my body. I haven't been able to sleep, but I haven't been able to get out of bed.
I terrified that this is all that is left for me for the rest of my life.
I'm scared that I will soon be back in the hospital.
