Wednesday, February 22, 2012

purple teeth and sleeping pills

That's how I have been surviving my days and nights.  Red wine, nyquil, sleeping pills, razor blades, and vitamin E oil.  That pretty much describes my existence.  I can't stop looking at the photos.  I've talked about this with CT today.  I see her again tomorrow. 

My legs and abdomen are covered in hives.  Really gross, red, hot, itchy hives.  There are hives all over my body.  I haven't been able to sleep, but I haven't been able to get out of bed. 

I terrified that this is all that is left for me for the rest of my life. 

I'm scared that I will soon be back in the hospital.