PSST! Hey you! Yeah, you. You look like you know how to have a good time, do you know where I can get some peace?
Right now it's taking everything I have just to exist. Right now, I'm really lost. Right now, it's hard to breathe, literally and figuratively and every other way possible. I'm trying so hard to get my act together and become a functioning human being. It might not look like it or sound like it from my blog, but I really am trying. I really am working so hard. I DO want to get better. I want to feel like I can make it in life, but sometimes the hope of that possibility is more painful than trying to accept defeat. It seems like every time I make the tiniest step forward, a giant piano falls out of the sky and squashes me flat. I'm trying so hard to get down the block, to go forward, but I'm so afraid of the next piano that's going to land on me that it makes it so hard for me to move.
Is there anyone out there that can hook me up with their peace dealer?
I respect your spiritual beliefs and practices, but I'm not looking for religion with this entry. Trust me, I've tried it. Please don't send me a bunch of emails about Jesus and/or your deity of choice, although the Flying Spaghetti Monster is pretty tempting right now.