I went to therapy today which is only a few buildings from a big government building that I need to go to. I walked in and stood there for a minute. There were no women anywhere. Men everywhere. I left. I feel so strange around men, well straight men anyway. I become jumpy and anxious and so self conscious about my behavior around them. I can't ever calm down enough to connect with them. I walked in there, hoping to find a receptionist or someone who could answer my embarrassing questions but I became frozen and eventually left.
The vodka in my freezer is a bit seductive right now.