I seriously do not understand life, people, relationships-- basically the fucking world. I just don't get it. I am beyond lost right now. So my therapist isn't dumping me anymore. I wrote her a really long email telling her how I feel about her and the whole situation and then I told her to fuck off. Literally. Now she wants to stick around. What? So all I have to do to keep people around is tell them to fuck off? Really? I just don't get it. If that's the case I have seriously been living my life the wrong way. I'm just going to live my life the way I feel like it and stop worrying about other people's opinions and feelings. I'm going to try the things I've always wanted to try and do the things I want to do, consequences be damned. I don't care what happens anymore, I really don't. I don't know what I want with therapy anymore. I don't know if I want her to be my therapist anymore. It feels like everything is ruined. I really just don't get it and I don't trust her motives for staying.